Seemingly unimportant

I'd like to be thinner, I'd like to see bones.
Maybe then I'll learn what it's like to feel 'delicate' and 'beautiful'.

I'd like to laugh, and love, and lust,
And not feel like it will all be snatched from me.

I'd like to cry a river; no, a fucking sea
I'd like to cry out every hurt, every injustice, every lonely night
Till there's nothing left in me.
Maybe then, I can finally move on with my life.

I'd like to take a road-trip,
I'd like to go somewhere new.


I'd like to feel like I have something to contribute,
That I am not a waste of space.

I want some meaning, some reasoning behind this, that; how, when, and why?

I want to obtain that high, that place where the world slows down, and I can finally see beauty again. I want to be so gloriously high in life.

But, most of all, I want to have hope again, and faith in the world around me; in the people in it.